Chasing You

I don't wanna
be that girl
who chases
that guy
and makes a fool of herself.
Why should I?

You're just
that guy
I barely know
but can't get out
of my head.
Why can't I?

It's not fair
to me
when you look past my smile
and I still give you one.

It's so pathetic
that just a glimpse
of your face
makes my
stomach twist.

It's utterly stupid
that whenever
my phone buzzes
I hope against hope
that it's you.

I can't lose my dignity-
at least, not in public-
by being that girl
that's chasing you.